the dark side of paradise

I have known for a long time that different girls are attracted to me 

but to me it seemed like people and society were always preventing me 

from dating those girls 

after the second half of 2018 

I started to realize what is going on 

and then I also realized that many girls are attracted to me 

and later I realized that ridiculously many girls 

have been in love with me for a long time 

I was not surprised by the sheer number of girls 

because I know how girls are 

I also understood that unrighteous individuals 

prevent me from dating and having sex with young attractive girls 

that love me 

I think it's horrible that most of the girls that love me 

live in celibacy while they wait for me 

I would have preferred if the girls that love me 

were fucked by many guys at the same time

so that those girls wouldn't be sexually frustrated 

to me it wouldn't matter if the girls that love me 

have sex with many guys at the same time 

since I don't fuck those girls anyway 

I don't know if I would fuck a girl that loves me 

if she was fucked by many guys at the same time 

and I don't know 

if I would continue to have a serious relationship with a girl 

that loves me 

after she was fucked by many guys at the same time 

during our serious relationship 

but I know that I will have sex with many girls at the same time 

and that will probably change my perception 

of what I consider that girls that I fuck should be allowed to do 

while I continue my relationship with them 

but since I will live forever 

and many the girls that love me will live forever 

then I consider it likely that some of those girls 

sooner or later will have sex with many guys 

I don't want girls that love me 

to be imprisoned by their love for me 

so that they are unable to enjoy life 

by having sex with many guys at the same time 

if I'm in a serious relationship with a girl 

and she asks me 

if I'm ok with her getting fucked by many guys at the same time 

and I give my ok to her 

then she can get fucked by many guys at the same time 

but I don't know 

if that will make me want to end my relationship with her 

or if I will continue my relationship with her for a while 

and later end it 

but what I do know is that I don't want girls to suffer 

because they love me 

and another factor is that so many girls are in love with me 

that I won't have time to fuck all those girls 

more than occasionally 

so to me it makes sense 

if those girls that I don't fuck too often 

would get fucked by many guys at the same time 

so those girls don't become sexually frustrated