Accidents

When I was a very little boy I was in the grass and I talked to an old man, then I stepped wrong into a wasp nest in a hole in the ground. They ascended around me and became hostile. I asked the old man what it was. He told me not to worry, that it was only horse flies. Then the wasps started to sting me. I told the old man that they were stinging me. 

He told me it was alright and to stand still.

When the pain became too much from too many stings I ran home to my mother.

When I was a a bit older than a baby I was sitting in a bathing ring while in the deep end of the big pool. I was very happy. A gang of boys turned the bathing ring over so that I was in the water. I could not swim.

On a schooltrip when I was 7 years old around 10 of kids my age started to lie on top of me to hold me down. I told them to stop. A boy was leading the assault on me, encouraging the other boys continue. My survival instincts activated and I threw them away easy as paper. Then I ran after their leader, but he was small and fast, so I picked up a stick and threw it into his back while he was running away from me. His arms twisted towards his back as he fell down in pain.

The other boys ran to the popular boy in the class who was popular with the girls. They told him to fight me. I turned towards him and felt my instincts take over. The popular boy's mother was sitting behind him, she put her arms around him and gripped him tightly. I saw fear in her eyes masqueraded as anger. The popular boy's eyes had no will to fight. Irelented.

Then a gang 5 girls my age formed a circle around me and started to bully me that I was not allowed to fight. They were happy and smiling as they teased me. I started to cry.

When I was around 10 years old, two friends from school held me down in a outside training mattress and started to tickle me until I could not breathe. 

Most of these pepple that abused me have reproduced. And humans wonder why their civilisations fall all the time.

arguments.

some people are of the opinion that because I guided some events in my favour it is my own fault that people abused me when I was a kid, teen and adult.

when someone started to abuse me, instead of fighting the abuser directly, I manipulated the events so that different jobs coincided with the demise of those that organized the abusers.

the abusers seems to have gotten away with their behaviour. unrighteous people protect each other.

I did jobs for different people and groups since I was a kid since it increased the chances of my own survival and the survival of those that I wanted to keep alive for the time being.

when a person prevented me from starting to date a girl, I did not fight it. I let the scenario play out.

problem is next time I met saw a girl that interested me, the same or some other person prevented me from dating that girl.

when I was in my 20s I was refused day jobs while it seemed that other people my own age easily found day jobs.

later in my 30s when I found day jobs, I always got the most boring and monotonous assignments.

the social services and the justice system took custody of my son away from me and gave it to my ex wife.

my son told me disturbing stuff about my ex wife, which I reported to the social services and they ignored it.

the social services should have eplained to me that someone could have coached my soon into saying stuff about his mother.

the social services explained nothing to me which led me to worry about my son´s wellbeing everytime he was with his mother and her friends an relatives.

it has been insinuated to me that different people and groups have claimed that they gave me girls to date and have sex with. those claims are false.

I was socially isolated during my adult life, prevented from meeting new friends. If I socialised with someone at an education or day job, they always avoided from meeting me socially outside of studies / day jobs.