Random Splinter

When I was a very little boy I was in the grass and I talked to an old man, then I stepped wrong into a wasp nest in a hole in the ground. They ascended around me and became hostile. I asked the old man what it was. He told me not to worry, that it was only horse flies. Then the wasps started to sting me. I told the old man that they were stinging me.  He told me it was alright and to stand still. When the pain became too much from too many stings I ran home to my mother. When I was a a bit older than a baby I was sitting in a bathing ring while in the deep end of the big pool. I was very happy. A gang of boys turned the bathing ring over so that I was in the water. I could not swim. On a schooltrip when I was 7 years old around 10 of kids my age started to lie on top of me to hold me down. I told them to stop. A boy was leading the assault on me, encouraging the other boys continue. My survival instincts activated and I threw them away easy as paper. Then I ran after their leader,...

some people are of the opinion that because I guided some events in my favour it is my own fault that people abused me when I was a kid, teen and adult. when someone started to abuse me, instead of fighting the abuser directly, I manipulated the events so that different jobs coincided with the demise of those that organized the abusers. the abusers seems to have gotten away with their behaviour. unrighteous people protect each other. I did jobs for different people and groups since I was a kid since it increased the chances of my own survival and the survival of those that I wanted to keep alive for the time being. when a person prevented me from starting to date a girl, I did not fight it. I let the scenario play out. problem is next time I met saw a girl that interested me, the same or some other person prevented me from dating that girl. when I was in my 20s I was refused day jobs while it seemed that other people my own age easily found day jobs. later in my 30s when I found da...